Chapter 1

I'm Shannon and I cheated on my husband and paid a much higher price than you could ever imagine. It wasn't really planned, no matter what you think. I was mad at Gary for not going to my Christmas party and drank a little too much. I was hit on by a number of men and I do have to say it made me feel sexy.

I received a number of comments about how good I looked and that no husband in his right mind would let a woman who looked as sexy as I did go to a party alone. It made me feel good about myself and more angry with my husband who chose to go to work instead of coming with me.

I'll admit I flirted but felt it was harmless. One of the partners in the firm was spending more time with me and I felt good that I was still able to attract a good looking man. The only problem was Ed was a married man. He had two kids and his wife was pregnant with his third child. She didn't want to attend the party.

I came to the party with my friend Anna and we were to share a room. She met up with Ryan, a man she liked. They were both divorced and decided to hook up for the night. So after the party I got up to go to my room but was a bit wobbly. Ed laughed and told me he would walk me to my room.

When I let him in my room I knew it was wrong but I was also mad at my husband for not coming to the party. This is when Gary and I would have made love but he wasn't there.

Ed kept telling me how nice I looked; I was drunk and took it all in. He said he loved his wife and family but hadn't made love to her in weeks due to her pregnancy. I don't know why I did it but I let him kiss me. It was nothing like kissing Gary. It was just a kiss but he went further and rubbed my boobs.

I told him, "No" that I was married but I didn't stop him. He continued to rub me and put his hand on my leg and pushed it up my thigh and on to my pussy. I knew it was wrong but it did feel good. I convinced myself that it was Gary's fault for not being there.

I let Ed have sex with me. All I thought about was getting even with Gary for not being there. There was no love between Ed and I, it really was just sex and not all that good either. When we finished Ed apologized profusely, saying how sorry he was and wished it hadn't happened.

I told him to just leave and it would be our secret but it would never happen again. That's when it really hit me what I had done. For the only time in our marriage I had sex with another man other than my husband. I didn't love the man and I guess it was some sort of revenge against Gary.

I fell asleep thinking about what I had done. I cried and promised myself that it would never happen again. I would always be faithful to my husband. I wasn't worried about Ed saying anything since he was also ashamed as well as married with a pregnant wife and two kids at the time. What would happen if someone found out he had sex with one of his employees? I wasn't worried about him ever telling anyone.

I met my friends Anna and Ryan the next morning. They asked me how I slept and I lied and told them I fell right to sleep. I asked them how they slept and they both smiled; enough said.

I felt the mistake I made was over and done and promised myself to put it out of my mind. When I got home, Gary and the kids weren't there yet. He left me a note that he went to pick them up the kids at my Mom's. I was kind of glad because I had to try and act normal and wasn't sure if I could do it when I first saw Gary.

The kids came in the door first and yelled, "Mommy!" I hugged them and gave them kisses. I then looked at Gary. He did ask me how the party went and I told him it was fine although I got tired of explaining to everyone why my husband hadn't come.

Again he apologized but I tried to get it out of my mind. If he knew the truth I should be on my knees begging his forgiveness for what I had done.

When he asked me about dancing I told him I had a lot of dance partners and really enjoyed myself. He asked me if I drank too much and I told him I limited my drinking since he wasn't there to protect me and I had to drive home this morning.

That was all he asked about the party. The next couple of days were hard for me. When I saw Ed at work he called me into his office and apologized again. He said we both had too much to drink and made a mistake. He was very sorry and hoped that I would be discreet about it.

I told him I was sorry it happened and we both agreed it would never happen again. I left his office hoping it was all behind us. On Wednesday night I waited up for Gary to come home.

I decided to initiate making love to my husband. After he got out of the shower and into bed I began to rub his cock through his briefs. I pulled down his briefs and began to give him oral sex. This wasn't something I did very often but knew Gary loved it. Usually it didn't happen unless I had drunk too much. After getting him very hard I sat up and pulled up my nightgown; I wasn't wearing any panties.

I got up and lowered myself onto his cock. Damn! It felt so good. As I rode his cock he reached up and slid his hands under my nightgown and rubbed my tits. He lasted all of five minutes before coming hard and shooting his load deep into my pussy. I was having an orgasm as well as I felt my pussy pulsating around his cock.

After we both came I lay on his chest. He asked me what brought that on? He said he wasn't complaining and that it was a great surprise. I told him that I felt that I was a little hard on him for the past week. That I understood he worked hard to provide for the family. It was my way of saying, "I'm sorry". The thing is I truly was sorry. Not for going to the party but for cheating on my wonderful husband.

Life was rather normal for the next couple of months. We made it through the holidays. For New Year's we went to my sister Beth's house. She was having a party. My mom agreed to watch the kids again.

I was drinking but wasn't afraid seeing it was all family and Gary said he would only drink a few beers knowing he had to drive home afterwards. Gary didn't mind me drinking because he knew it lowered my resolve and we would be having some good sex afterwards.

After arriving home Gary took the lead and started by eating my pussy. He always told me how pretty my pussy was. He spread my pussy lips and shoved his tongue in as deep as he could. His whole face was against my pussy, busy licking and sucking for all he was worth. I had an orgasm and felt my juices flowing.

By then he was as hard as a rock. I spread my legs and he pushed his cock to the hilt into my pussy. "Oh God, I love it," I was saying. "Fuck me Honey, fuck me hard and deep. It feels so good."

After he came and pulled his cock out of me, I kissed him and told him how much I loved him and meant it. We both turned over and went to sleep.

It was now February and we talked about going out for Valentine's Day. He said we could celebrate it on Saturday. I was happy about it and we decided to ask another couple to go with us. We found out a long time ago that it was more fun and gave us someone else to talk with.

I asked Anna if she wanted to go out with us. We had become close friends and Anna recently began dating Ryan who she met at a Christmas party. He worked in the actuarial department at the office.

Anna got back to me a couple of days later and said she and Ryan would love to go. They left the plans up to Gary since he told me he wanted to plan the whole evening. I gave him Ryan's phone number to coordinate any plans he may have.

Gary really did it up big which I found out later. We would be going to the Sheraton Inn. Gary did contact Ryan and made sure he wouldn't mind spending the extra money for a room. He said Ryan really liked Anna and was hoping there might be a future for them.

When Gary gets excited he sometimes has trouble holding a secret so he told me some of his plans. We would be having dinner and drinks. They also had a lounge where dancing was permitted. He even told me that all he could think about is getting me a little drunk and having his way with me. It made me laugh. I really loved him.

Gary went all out for Valentine's Day. As I found out later he ordered flowers and candy which would both be placed in our hotel rooms to surprise us girls.

As of late I was feeling a bit nervous. I hadn't had my period for the last two months. On the Thursday before we were to go out, I stopped at the drugstore on the way home and bought an early pregnancy test. I was shaking as I took the first test. I waited a minute and it came up positive.

I began to cry and took the second one hoping the first was in error. It showed positive also. I sat there and cried, my mind thinking a thousand different thoughts. What am I going to do! Right then I wanted to die. I knew I had to calm down and try to think logically.

Gary had a vasectomy after our son was born. I knew this pregnancy came from the one stupid moment I had with Ed. God must have been punishing me, I thought. I knew I couldn't have this baby. Much as I didn't want to do it, I knew I had to have an abortion.

I knew my husband well enough to know he would divorce me if he knew about the one time mistake. If I had told him about the my stupidity after it happened we might have been able to work through it. Now it was much too late and I had to keep it from him.

My mom dropped the kids off and I made supper. Gary called shortly after and said he was working over which he did quite often. I told him I would take out the trash so he could sleep in in the morning. I buried the test strips in the trash and set the bags out.

I was somewhat numb on Friday but went through the motions. On Saturday when I looked at Gary I felt he could see right through me. He would stare at me but not really say anything. It was like he wanted to say something but didn't. He dropped the kids at my mom's while I was getting a shower and dressed to go out.

When he got back home I had just gotten out of the shower and had put on my red panties. He came up to me and put his arms around me and even rubbed my belly. It was like he knew something. My mind was thinking overtime.

"Honey, we can't do this now," I said, thinking he wanted to make love. "There'll be plenty of time for that tonight."

I put on this beautiful low cut red dress that I had bought for the occasion. I wanted to look sexy for my husband. Earlier I had made an appointment to have my hair done.

He kept staring at me as he got dressed. There was no way he could know anything. I finally couldn't take it anymore and asked, "Gary, what's the matter? Something has been bothering you all morning."

He reached in his jacket pocket and pulled out the test strips. "I found these in the garbage yesterday. What are they doing in our garbage? Are you pregnant?" he asked loudly.

"Why would you even go in the garbage anyway?" I asked.

"The damn dogs went in our trash. All I did was clean up the mess and came across your test results; I can't believe you did this to our marriage."

I knew I had to say something so I lied again. "It isn't mine. The strips belong to Anna. Thursday night after work she stopped by and we talked about the dinner. Then, she told me she missed two periods. She had bought the test kit and it was in her car. I mentioned for her to go get it and take the test here. At least she would know."

"So, Anna's pregnant. Why two tests?" asked Gary.

"They come two in a package so a woman can be sure. After the first positive reading Anna went and took it a second time and then she threw the test strips in the trash."

"Please don't tell her I told you. I promised her I would keep it a secret. I don't want to embarrass her. She's not positive if Ryan is the father. She's trying to figure it out. I don't want to mess up their relationship."

Gary said, "I promise not to say anything. I wish you would have told me though, yesterday and today would have been much easier on me."

"I didn't tell you because there wasn't any reason to. It isn't our business and I had no idea you found them in the trash. If you would have mentioned it then I would have told you just like I did. Now let's get going. I don't want to be late for dinner."

I hated so much having to lie to him but felt our marriage depended on it. We met Ryan and Anna at the restaurant. I formally introduced Gary to Ryan. We all talked for awhile and I needed to talk to Anna. I got up and said I was going to the ladies room and Anna said she would come with me.