Chapter 4

Jethro watched DiNozzo stalk out and leaned forward, arms on his knees, hands lightly clasped together. He sifted through the information. He'd known DiNozzo had some kind of feelings for him but he would never have termed them as love. Or lust. Just healthy hero worship.

"He really loves you, Jenny. You ready to get married?" That seemed to be the safest topic at the moment.

"After what just happened, you want to ask me if I'm ready to get married?" Jen couldn't believe that Jethro wanted to have this conversation, not when there were so many other things going on around them. "Are you interested in Tony? If you are, I'm not going to say you can't play with him, Jethro. I wouldn't deny him that. Anyone else I'd have some serious problems with it, but you aren't a threat to my relationship. You were hitting on me earlier, so I know you're interested in me. But it's a package deal, me and Tony or nothing."

Jethro let out an ironic laugh. "I was trying to be safe, Jenny, but as usual, you cut right to the heart of the matter." He nodded, admitting his interest to her. "But I don't want you two to be stressed over it. I'm not as invested as he is. Jenny, I had no idea ... You didn't either."

It was a statement and not a question.

"No, I didn't know. I'm not surprised, I knew he had a case of hero worship, but not that it went any deeper." Jenny couldn't help but wonder how long it had been going, but she was pretty sure it went back to when Gibbs found him and brought him to NCIS. "I can't deny that the two of you together will be extremely sexy."

Jethro shook his head and laughed slightly. "You wouldn't mind if we ... played? All three of us? Together? What is this? You get accused of murder and then add a sexual escapade to your repertoire?" He didn't mean to sound so flippant. "I didn't mean that the way it sounded. I really am interested in both of you."

"I know you didn't mean it that way, Jethro; you're just shocked and things are getting away from you. I know how much you need to be in control. I just figure what do I have to lose? What ever happens between us all won't break up Tony and I. You and I have always had chemistry and I will do whatever it takes to make Tony happy. It's a win/win situation for all of us."

"Yeah, it isn't you who stands to lose your career." He couldn't take the words back and smacked his forehead lightly. "I didn't mean that the way it sounded either. I just meant that if anyone ever found this out, it would sink me and Tony professionally. Though I guess a threesome would do the same for you."

Had she scanned the entire house for bugs? They could have already set up their own ruination. Surveillance, he mouthed to her?

"You think I would let you two go down for something I actively participated in? You obviously don't know me as well as I thought you did. No one is going to find out."

"No, I don't think you'd let it happen, Jenny." Jethro brushed a kiss over her forehead. "Was just worrying out loud."

Jen should have considered what was really worrying Jethro. "I swept the house, found several badly hidden bugs. The FBI is currently listening to my laundry being done down stairs. There is a camera in my office, but they're not aware I found it. I'll shut it down tomorrow, we just have to stay away from the office while naked."

"Okay, I'll relax then. If Tony wants it as much as I do, and you do too, we'll do it." He was really going to have a threesome with Jen and Tony! It boggled his mind.

"It was never a matter of wanting you or not wanting you. I needed to find myself again, I was so wrapped up with you. And you were still wrapped up with your soon to be ex-wife."

Jethro had never thought of it that way, the way she had perceived it. "Not true. I was in love with you. I just couldn't..." It was all in the past now. Maybe he'd tell her someday, but maybe he wouldn't. A lot depended on what happened today.

"You couldn't and I wanted to. Even knowing going in that you couldn't, I went and fell in love with you and expected a ring and the white dress." She'd been young and stupid then, but she couldn't help the little girl dreams she had. "I thought I could handle you, and found out it wasn't as easy as it seemed."

"I wanted to. I wanted it too much. I didn't want to love another woman and lose her, Jenny. I loved you so damn much. You were an agent, you were in danger all the time and losing you would have killed me. I couldn't bury another wife!" So he'd started sabotaging their relationship until she finally turned away from him, then, in his mind, he could blame her.

He looked away, wasn't able to see if she was pitying him for his outburst.

"It was the wrong time for both of us, Jethro. I was too green, on the job and in relationships. I said I only wanted a little fun while I could get it, but I never meant it." Jen sighed; they should have had this discussion a long time ago, before she left Paris. Since it hadn't happened then it would have been wise to do it when she was reassigned, but even then she'd been afraid of what he would say. "We sure screwed up, didn't we? Obviously, we had no clue what the other wanted. But I don't regret the time we spent together Just wish it had ended differently. Although I wouldn't trade what I have with Tony for the world."

"Where you were concerned, Jen, it was always the wrong time for me. I wanted you too much. I couldn't allow myself to be in love and lose again. That almost killed me." So he'd married people he didn't really like. Some companionship was better than caring too much. "You made your choice, Jenny. I made mine. Even though I miss you, I know you have DiNozzo. I know."

"You're right, I do. And yet, we're standing here discussing the fact that the man who wants to marry me wants you in ways neither of us could have guessed. We can't seem to keep away from one another."

"No, I knew we couldn't when you showed up as my new boss." He gave her a small smile. "And now I'm going to be sleeping with both bosses. That was never on the table when Tom was the director."

"It might have been, you just weren't looking, Jethro. Tom may have been checking you out every time you came into MTAC, but you weren't receptive." Jen laughed, knowing that Tom Morrow was a happily married man with three daughters. The likelihood of him checking out Gibbs was slim to none. "If you had played nice, you might have been able to sleep your way into the director's chair."

"Somehow, Jenny, I don't think I was Tom's type. Then again, I wouldn't have thought DINozzo either..." He trailed off, giving her a challenging look. "Two directors for the price of one. What'd I do to get this? Oh yeah, forgot. I'm irresistible. Three exes would disagree, but you were always head and shoulders above them, Jenny."

"You only say that because I didn't marry you. You might not be so kind if I had taken you up on any one of your proposals during the heat of passion." She had been tempted, and had even done it once just to see his reaction. It had been priceless, and she almost hadn't told him that she didn't mean it. He had been relieved, but there had been a sadness in his eyes, something that had stuck with him until the day she left him standing in a hotel lobby in Paris. "I think that today is just your lucky day, Jethro Gibbs. Of course, I don't plan on there being two directors for long. So take advantage of it while you can."

"I say that because you were the one who got away, Jenny. You played with my heart. You turned me down so many times, then said yes, and it was like it was a joke." His voice softened and he remembered the pain of it. "You're the only woman alive who has ever broken my heart multiple times. You're the only woman I ever fell in love with since..." He looked down and away until he'd rearranged his features.

"Now, this is my lucky day, huh? Any chance of tying you up?"

"You're not the senior agent in bed tonight, Jethro, so you might end up tied up if you're lucky. We'll see what happens tonight. I have some silk ties that might come in handy. Of course, I might just be saying that to see how excited I can get you. I'm not the same little girl who fell into your arms." Jen loved to tease, and Gibbs was eating it up. "I don't just go along with whatever happens. I control the situation when I can."

"You always did," he said quietly, unable to let go of his pain quite yet. He needed a little perspective to clear his head, and come to terms with this.

Tony stuck his head into the den. "Food is here. Dining room table, okay?"

Jethro jumped up and immediately moved into Tony's personal space, lightly grasping his shirt. "Feeling's mutual, DiNozzo." When Tony's eyes just widened, Jethro ran a thumb over the other man's lower lip. "Feel how much I want both of you."

He pressed his hips against Tony, their cocks rubbing against each other's, forcing a groan through his clenched teeth. "After dinner, Tony. You're my dessert. Our dessert."

He turned and eyed Jen, nodding. "Package deal suits me, Jenny. Suits me really well."

"Me too, Jethro. I think that it will work very well for us. I want Tony happy, and if this makes him happy, I'm all for it."

Tony couldn't speak or talk. Every brain cell was centered under his belt where he pressed against Gibbs. "Happy, yeah." He covered Gibbs' hand with his and thrust his hips upward, groaning when the other man pressed against him urgently, straining just as much.

"Gotta eat, Tony. But I don't want to stop, either. Be patient."

"I don't want to be," Tony groaned the words out, flicking Jethro's thumb with his tongue. The man only responded by tightening his hand so subtly that Tony almost missed it.

"I know. But Jenny needs to eat. Come on, loverboy."

"I'm going to need a lot of energy to keep up with you two. So dinner is a necessity. But I'm really looking forward to dessert."

"I think we all are," Jethro said in a strained voice. He reluctantly released Tony and followed the younger man into the dining room. "He big?" Jethro asked Jenny in an undertone, wanting to be prepared.

"One thing on a man's mind, is he bigger than me?" It was fun to know both of her boys had the same concerns, although for different reasons. "He's a little bigger than you, not so much that it's noticeable to the average eye, but to someone who has been intimate with the both of you, yeah, I know."

Jethro nodded. "You have enough lube? Condoms? Or you on the Pill?" She gave him a shocked look and he shrugged. "I didn't plan this, so I'm not prepared."

"I don't generally have orgies around here, so condoms and lube aren't something I stock. Maybe Tony came prepared, but I don't think so. Someone is going to have to make a drugstore run. I can improvise so much, but not on condoms. I'm protected but you two are the ones with the problems."

"Let me. You two make sure you're okay with this, Jen. Save me some teriyaki chicken and sake." He bent down and kissed her cheek, then squeezed her hand. He knew he was safe but he couldn't be sure about Tony ... and Jen, now.

When Jen came in alone, Tony's heart sank. "He left? Too much for him? Will he keep his mouth quiet?"

"Oh, he left all right, but he'll be back shortly. I'm not prepared for the lovefest that is to come. He was making a condom and lube run. Thought it might be best if the two of us had a little time to discuss while he wasn't here." Jen took the plate Tony was holding and sat down at the table, motioning him to follow. "I'm going in eyes wide open, but you need to make sure you're ready for this. There's a lot of emotional baggage that comes along with Leroy Jethro Gibbs. You have to be ready for that."

Tony felt relief run through him. "Bareback is okay, long as he's clean." Tony filled his plate with teriyaki chicken, rice, and sushi but bypassed the sake. He wanted to be clear-headed for tonight.

"He still would have gone out, Tony. He wanted us to talk and make sure of what we wanted. It's how he is, and nothing either of us would have said could change that."

"What do you mean, Jen? You're making it sound like this is more than it is. Do you want more?" He chewed his food slowly. "I wasn't even thinking of beyond the here and now."

"It could be just tonight, but for as big of a commitment phobe Gibbs is, he's looking for the perfect situation. Another couple, would be pretty close for him. I don't really know, I'm working with the little information that I was able to glean tonight, and what I remember from our time together. But that was a long time ago, and he's changed since then. I don't know what to expect today. We're going to have to play it by ear."

Tony sucked in a breath. He hadn't considered anything except sex since the blood went rushing to his cock. "We're solid, though? You and me, we're a team. I know you guys have a past ... but ... you're not doing this out of some need for closure, right?"

"I left him, that's about as closed as you get, Tony. I'm with you and solid pales in comparison to what I feel about our relationship. Jethro won't come between us, and I don't want you worried about that. This is your fantasy, and I get to live it with you. Yeah, we have a past but you are very much my future."

"Does it bother you? That I've been interested in Gibbs forever? That I sometimes like ... guys? Not as a steady diet, unless it was the right guy." Like Gibbs, Tony thought with an inward smirk. "And I've always been careful. You know I'm clean."

"Does it bother you that Jethro and I managed to have sex from one end of Europe to the other? And for the record, it was a very steady diet. The man can keep going longer than the energizer bunny." Taking a bite of her dinner, Jen chewed slowly, watching Tony's reaction to her words. "I know you're clean, I believed you when you told me but I also get your medical records on my desk after your physical. I also know that Jethro is clean and we have nothing to worry about. Having said that, I trust the two of you to take care of me in that sense. I can also assure you I am clean, and intend to stay that way."

Tony shook his head, meeting Jen's eyes. "No. Kind of ... you know ... turns me on. The two of you together. I'd like to watch sometime. There's this chemistry and energy that comes from you two being together. It isn't always comfortable. Sometimes it is way too intense, but I can never tear my eyes away. I want to be a part of that chemistry. I want to share what we have with Gibbs."

"And we will. It's going to change us, all of us. I don't know that it's going to be for good or not. I hope, I don't want this to go badly for any of us. It could, even if we all agree that we're adults and can do this and walk away without it hurting. We can do this right? I'm not worried about us, but I am worried about what it could do to all our relationship. We still have to work together after this." She started eating and Tony breathed a silent sigh of relief.