Chapter 1: A Marriage in Turmoil

Where do I begin? I guess when I was just a young buck of nineteen freshly out of high school on his way to college. Like a lot of kids at that time I guess I thought I was hot stuff. I dated a lot and tried to see how many pairs of panties I could get into. God, I loved the challenge. Will she or won't she? That is the question. I had as many wills as I did will nots.

I started college but like most young guys at that time I dropped out eventually. My mind was on the pussy challenge, not studying. I did learn enough in college to land some good jobs.

I was in sales which put me in a lot of homes. Damn, I like that. Most places I stopped were just for business and I took care of it, being one of the top salesmen. Then there were the pussy stops. That's when you could smell it upon entering a residence. The woman, usually alone, dressed in sexy clothes or robes and nightgowns. In these cases I usually got the sale quickly and then did what comes natural with a young buck and a lonely or horny woman of any age.

The hardest thing to judge was determining if the woman was flirting or wanted sex. I didn't want to lose my job for a piece of ass when there was so much out there. I usually let the ladies take the lead. If they brought up sex or made the first move I jumped their bones. I probably passed up a lot of pussy just to be on the safe side.

I eventually met a really nice gal when I was doing a little shopping at the mall. She was just a sweet little thing standing a little over five feet tall, a big bubbly smile and big boobs. As she waited on me I used my charm and tried to get a date. After about the tenth time coming in the store she agreed to go out with me. I was really falling for this girl. I was just hoping she was doing the same.

I still kept my sales job while dating Nancy. We got along great together and eventually made love. Yes, it was love. It was so much different than the sex I was used to. I wanted to please this woman, not just myself. After about ten months of dating, she became pregnant. She was on birth control but I guess we were that one in ninety-nine chance.

In her fourth month of pregnancy we got married. Looking back I guess I wasn't ready to be married. I loved Nancy, I really did, but I was twenty and pretty immature. I thought with my dick. I had sex with a few gals after getting married just because I could. It was different from the loving sex I had with Nancy. More than anything I still believe it was the chase. Just to say I was able to get into a girl's pants and then do it.

I didn't brag about it to anyone but I believe people knew. I was a married guy with a kid on the way. I know people want to call me a bastard, prick, lowlife, and all the other adjectives. I deserve to be called them all. I know that now but then it was just trying to get into any woman's panties. I was an immature kid.

One day Nancy found out I banged one of the girls at the office. She cried and cried and we talked about it. She thought about divorcing me and probably should have. She eventually forgave me. I really began feeling bad about the affair. For some reason at twenty years old I didn't think about my actions until it was too late. Then after I found out what it did to my loving wife, it tore me apart. I vowed never to cheat on her again if she would forgive me.

I kept that promise and tried to be a good husband. The baby was born, a son we named Jacob. We were now a family. We had our problems like any family. We could always use more money. We didn't agree on what to buy. Like any young couple we had a big difference of opinions. But we were able to work them out.

One thing was for sure and that was that after my affairs my love grew for Nancy. I might not have always showed it but it was there. I would die for that woman. Making love to her was fantastic. I believe it was because of the effort both of us put into it. I would do anything to make her climax. To this day, hers is the only pussy I ever ate. I loved sticking my tongue deep into her pussy until she climaxed.

We even tried anal sex about three times. It wasn't all it was hiked up to be. Her ass was so tight it hurt my dick. I used some KY jelly so I could at least get the head in. It did feel good shooting a load in her ass though. She preferred good old-fashioned pussy sex. Didn't make any difference who was on top or if I got her from behind, it was all good. She didn't like to give head. She tried it a few times but I could tell she hated it. I wasn't going to make her do it when she didn't received pleasure from it. I did continue to eat her out. I know it made her feel great.

A couple of years later we had another son, David. We couldn't have been happier. We were truly a family. Probably as normal as they come.

I always wanted to own my own business. To be able to control my own destiny. Nancy and I talked and talked about it. Money was kind of tight with having the two boys and all the other expenses. We finally found a small hardware store. We bought it on land contract and made the business a success. Not a lot of money but enough to survive. I was really happy to have fulfilled that dream of having my own business. A wonderful wife and two sons. Life was good.

Nancy didn't lose all her weight after the second baby. She always talked down about herself. I told her she looked fine. I loved her heavy, skinny, it didn't make any difference to me. Of course she never really believed me but it was true. When I looked at her I didn't think about her weight. Granted that a beautiful sculptured body looks great but I loved Nancy regardless of the weight factor. Besides she was a little overweight, not obese. Hell, I was thirty pounds overweight myself. She would go on diet after diet. Always trying something to take the weight off.

We would argue about it over and over again. She always ended the arguments by throwing the affair up at me even though it was years and years earlier. I guess even though she said she forgave me deep down the negative feelings were still there.

She worked part time in her job while the boys were growing up. After the boys were in high school, she took a promotion in her job. She was a department manager and would make a lot more money. She decided to get back on the diet kick and also joined a health club for women. I didn't mind this since it was an all woman exercise place. Whenever a woman joins a health club and the husband doesn't, it seems to lead to affairs.

I was surprised she stayed with it. She began to lose weight and was feeling good about herself. That made me feel good. I liked her to be happy and if being thinner made her happy then I was happy. Our sex life started to rear up again. Like most married couples it waned for a few years while being busy with the family. Whenever we made love it was good. I guess after so many years of marriage you just sort of take the sex for granted. Sometimes we might go as much as two months without having sex. But then when we made love it was great.

She liked her job and new found body. She just seemed so much happier. Then it happened. She came home and asked if I would mind if she went out with her friends. I said of course not, you've been going out with them for years. She mentioned they were having a girls night out on Saturday and wanted to make sure I didn't have a problem with it. This just seemed strange. I knew something was bothering her. So I asked her what the problem was.

She just said she was probably going through a menopause phase and her mood swings were probably getting to her. I hugged her and said I loved her and I would always be here for her. She just hugged me back. I felt her shudder a little. I knew we had a problem but it wasn't the right time to face it. I would just have to think about it and decide how to approach her.

On Saturday I watched to see how she dressed to go out with the girls. She just wore a pair of black slacks and a nice blouse. She looked good but to me she always looked good and I often told her so.

She told me where they were expecting to go in case I needed her for anything. Then her friend Pam picked her up and they left. It was bothering me. I had to know what was happening to her. I waited a few minutes and headed out myself. I really didn't want to spy on her because I always trusted her. There just seemed to be something wrong with her demeanor. I had to find out what it was.

Nancy and her friends went to a combination dance hall-lounge-night club. It was really big. It was easy to get lost in the crowd. I went up to the second floor on kind of a balcony where I could over see the lower level. I was able to spot Nancy and her girlfriends sitting together in two of the half round booths. They seemed to be having a good time. Maybe I was wrong, maybe this wasn't part of the problem. I ordered a drink and just kind of watched Nancy. I felt bad being there but I needed to know for my own well being.