Chapter 1

Janet "Babs" Daggett was uncharacteristically nervous as her jet began its approach to the Resort's airport. She had given sales presentations at work with the vice president over her department in the room, she had ran for student body president in high school and college, she had even given a presentation to the President of the USA and other dignitaries concerning a charity she volunteered for but she never had been this nervous before.

She had been called Babs since Jr High for many of their friends thought she looked like Barbara Streisand. She didn't think so but she did sing. She usually did pretty well at Karaoke nights.

It had been eight months since she had seen her husband and she didn't know how he or she herself, for that matter, would react when they saw each other. The separation had been her idea, but it had gone on far longer than she had anticipated. She figured it would take her two to three months, four at the max, for her to decide if she still wanted to be married to Jimmy. The separation would also give him a chance, to see if he was more at peace with or without her. However, she had been uncharacteristically indecisive. She still hadn't figured out what she wanted when it came to her husband. Of course, she hadn't done much thinking about it the first four months. She was embarrassed to admit that she had gotten carried away being with other men, and had done a lot of dating during that time. She had even started to develop relationships with a couple of the guys she dated and kissed a few of them. She hadn't had sex with any, even though she had made out and even done some petting with a couple. She had even gone as far as to give two guys hand jobs. One guy she gave a climax to in his pants, the other guy had taken his shaft out, and she had slid her hand up and down it long enough for him to spout. It had been in his car after dark, so she didn't get a good look at his shaft, but she did get a good feel of it though. It hadn't been her idea to take it out, the guy she liked the most decided to take things further on their sixth date. Babs had let him caress her breasts through her top for a minute, while she fought her conscience. After the kissing and with her letting him feel her breasts, he may have thought she had wanted to do more. After she heard his zipper go down, she clasped his hardon with one hand as he rubbed her clit through her leggings. At one point, she had even used both hands as she milked his shaft continuously, with a gentle twist of the head on each stroke. He groaned out loud each time she did, Babs smiled to herself since she knew that it would feel good, having done it on Jimmy a time or two.

It was after that date she had realized two things. The first thing was that if she continued the course she was on she would end up having sex with a date, it was only a matter of when and with whom. She had already almost given in twice, but it would be cheating if she had. The fact that she was technically separated wouldn't change the fact that she would be cheating. They weren't legally separated, and they hadn't even filed for divorce much less gotten one yet. The second thing she realized was that she was in danger of breaking her promise to Jimmy. When she had come to him to say they were going to separate she had promised him, sworn to him that it wasn't a sneaky way for her to divorce him, that it truly was a time for her to think about their relationship, not a precursor to divorce. Babs knew that some of the guys she was dating were hoping that they would be the ones she would give in to some day. She now knew that she would have someday, with the kissing and light petting. But some of the guys were really interested in getting to know her better, two were interested in romantic relationships that could lead to something serious. Those two she had liked and had done heavier petting with, and that was what scared her into dropping the whole dating routine.

It was at that point that she had stopped the dating, no more with any one. She did start going out with friends for a while, but most times it had been just one guy friend and even though they weren't dates per say, she again realized that a romantic relationship could have developed, so she had stopped that too. She made sure that when she went out with people, it was in groups of no smaller than five, and she never spent very much time with one guy. Of course, there was that one time she almost did something with one of her best friends, which would have been cheating even though she had nothing natural to stick into her.

She and Sue had gone out together a few times, just to talk and see what was happening. Both danced with guys when they went to nightclubs but Babs tried to keep that down, making sure all she did was dance a few times. They had gone to movies together and out to dinner a couple of times, just friends being together. Babs was able to talk to Sue about Jimmy, telling her how she was confused about her feelings toward her husband. That night something else happened. She still wasn't sure what. She was a little drunk, but she had been drunk before and nothing like that happened. She was horny too but she had been that before too, maybe it was everything together. She was feeling sorry for herself, horny, a little drunk and she appreciated Sue being there, as well as their friendship. Whatever the case, they had parked in front of where Babs had been staying to finish a conversation. Somehow, they had moved closer together, and soon were touching each other's leg. Babs had been wearing a miniskirt even though it wasn't one of her shorter ones, and Sue was wearing some nice short shorts and a tight blouse. Babs had noticed again, how nice her friend's legs looked. She had been staring at them all evening. Now she was touching them with hers and it turned her on. At one point she looked at Sue's face, seeing how beautiful it looked, and how full and inviting her lips were. She couldn't believe she was thinking along those lines but she didn't stop herself. She thought Sue had made the first move but wasn't sure. Babs had known her friend was horny also and at one point, she saw Sue's face move toward her own, next thing she knew they were kissing. First gentle but within seconds they turned the kiss into a passionate smack. At the same time, they each put their arms around the other and pressed their lips together even harder. She had never kissed a girl that hard before.

Twice, before marrying Jimmy, she had kissed a girl but not like this. One time it had been six very short kisses. It had been right after her 18th birthday, on the night she graduated from high school. A couple friends were out having a good time and in the excited, partying mood she was in, when a friend wanted a kiss she gave it to her, six times. Next time was just before she got engaged to Jimmy she gave a girl three long kisses. One had been over a minute. But there had been no tongue sucking, or lip nibbling in either of those episodes. Now she and Sue were fighting over who could stick their tongue in the other's mouth. Sue won for a moment and started to what could only be called fucking Bab's mouth with her tongue, in and out really fast. Jimmy had never done that, nor had any other boy for that matter. Not like this and it was turning her on big time.

After another two minutes, they stopped to take a breath. Because of the way Sue had frenched her Babs said, "I'm sorry I don't have anything to stick in you."

Sue said, "That's my line, I want to fuck you."

Babs had just nodded then they went back to kissing, but very soon after she felt a hand on her leg. Sue had placed her hand flat against her inner thigh just above the knee. The warmth it produced felt good. So Babs placed her hand on her friend's leg just above the spot Sue was touching on hers.

Before they got very far though, Sue suddenly removed her hand and started to pull Babs shirt out from her skirt. When she had it enough out her hand went underneath and slowly slid upwards. Babs had gasped but didn't protest. Within seconds, even though Sue had moved it slowly, her hand was touching Bab's bra. Instead of stopping or going over it, Sue slid her hand under it. Babs' boobs were slightly larger than her friend's. She gasped again as she felt the hand slide up and over the nipple. Suddenly Sue moved her hand in such a way that flipped Babs' bra up and over her breasts; soon she massaged one of them.

She said. "Yours are bigger then mine I want to see them."

Before Babs could protest Sue raised her friends' shirt up. She gasped as she saw her friend's breast revealed in al their glory.

A couple seconds of staring and she said. "I can't help myself."

She leaned forward and before Babs knew what she was doing, took a nipple in her mouth. Babs gasped loudly and almost came as she felt the suction on that, at the moment, very sensitive nipple. Her body jerked in ecstasy.

A few seconds later Sue changed boobs and sucked on the other as Babs said, "God, so good!"

It had been six months since Jimmy had done that, and two months since she had allowed any of the guys she had dated to do that. She had only allowed two guys the privilege, and that had been only a few seconds of sucking one nipple.

After a few minutes of Sue going back and forth Babs said, "My turn," and reached for her friend's boobs.

Sue startled as Babs grasped both and gently squeezed. Babs could feel the nipples under her hands, for her friend's top and bra were very thin. In fact, the bra was a half bra, better suited for an evening gown than the shorts she was wearing... This was the first time she had felt another woman's breasts sexually. It turned her on to feel the nipples harden, and hear her friend groan in appreciation. Seconds later, she took the next step and lifted Sue's top. She took it off completely, and while she was at it, undid the front clasp on her bra. Soon the bra joined the top on the seat, and Babs' sucked in her breath as she saw for the first time a pair of boobs she was going to suck on. After a moment, she leaned forward and began to suck on one nipple. A few seconds later, she licked it all over and sucked on the aureoles leaving hickeys.

After a couple minutes, her hand found its own way to Sue's leg again but this time it started sliding upward. At the same time, Sue started to move her hand, which was still in its spot. Both started moving their hands upward, slowly crawling their hands up like a spider would. Instead of feeling creepy as expected, it felt neat. Slowly they each moved their hands enjoying the feeling but also giving the other plenty of time to protest. Neither did though. Soon Babs touched her friend's shorts and she felt Sue's hand go under her skirt. It was obvious where it was headed. For a second that knowledge caused her to freeze. She had never done anything like this with a woman before. She wasn't completely sure she wanted to now but at the same time she was horny, excited, and finally said "go for it" to herself. She slipped her fingers under Sue's shorts and pushed it further up. Suddenly she gasped when she felt a hand touch her panties. She knew what was next and sure enough, the hand crawled over the material headed for that pleasure spot. Since Sue's shorts had wide legs, it didn't take her long to find Sue's panties. When she did, she quickly moved her fingers upward going for that button of joy. A second later, she felt something underneath the material and knew she had reached the right spot. It felt different than hers. "Thicker and smaller", she thought. She gasped as Sue found her button. Two seconds later, both were rubbing their fingers in circles while they were gasping moans out from what the other was doing.

Suddenly Sue paused and as Babs looked at her she looked confussed. At that amoment Babs saw a picture of Jimmyin her mind. She realized what she was doing as she thought about what Sue had said, "I want to fuck you". She knew she couldn't go on. She stopped for the same reason she had stopped the dating. Even though neither had a hard shaft to stick in the other, this was still cheating. She pulled her hand out from her friend's shorts and sat back pulling herself away from the hand caressing her.

"I'm sorry, I can't go on. It would be cheating. I am still married and I promised Jimmy that I wouldn't." a pause as she thought about what she had been doing then, "And... And I'm not sure if I am ready to make love to a woman. I thought I was but... actually doing it... I know I can't. I'm sorry."

Sue looked shocked for a moment but then said, "No need to be sorry. I got carried away too. I shouldn't have encouraged you to cheat."

Babs got out of the car and headed in, troubled by what happened. She immediantly started getting ready for bed. As she changed she thought about how what just happened disturbed her on two levels. The first and most important was that it would have been breaking her wedding vows and her newer promise to her husband. Second was that she was doing that with a member of the same sex. She understood some of the reasons she had kissed Sue but that still didn't make it Okay. She had never done all that before with a girl, hadn't ever wanted to even if the thought had flashed through her mind at times.

A few days later, while they were out with some friends, and alone for a moment Sue whispered to her that she had been almost ready to stop too. If Babs hadn't she would have. She wasn't ready for that either and wasn't sure what had gotten into her that night.

Currently as the plane landed, her nervousness increased and she realized one reason for it. Jimmy's communications with her the past few weeks had been fewer and more cold than usual. He called only about half the times he had been calling her and twice when she called him, he didn't answer. He always answered when she called no matter what he was doing. When they did talk his tone had been indifferent and twice he had been in a hurry to end the call. His questions about her had been almost accusing sounding.

Her birthday had been within those six weeks and he had sent a nice card, one with her favorite colors. He had obviously spent time looking for it, but while he had filled up half of one side of the inside he never once wrote that he loved her. He always said that at least once in every letter or card he sent. While reading it something else had bothered her, but it had taken her a while to figure it out. His note had been cold. He asked how she was doing but the phrasing was different, and it was at the last instead of at the beginning. She showed the card to her friend but she didn't see what Babs meant. Babs knew her husband, how he said things and this was cold. His last phone call had been very short, just saying that he would be here and wondering how her social life was and if she was having fun. She had wondered about that since it had been only recently, that he started asking about that. Did he mean how she was getting along with their friends? Was he wondering if she was relaxing at all? He usually had to convince her to relax and just have fun.

The plane landed and she joined those getting off. Once in the terminal it didn't take long for her to get her two suitcases, hire a bike cab, and to arrive at the hotel. Once there, she was ready to put up a fight for she expected that there would be some problem, there usually was. That was one of the things she didn't like about Jimmy. He was too wimpy at times; he would live with less than what he had ordered. She knew what she wanted, and was willing to make a big scene if they didn't give it to her as promised. Jimmy didn't like her doing that, of course, at times he had been correct when she had yelled at hireling, and it turned out to be a higher up who had made the change. "The hireling was just doing their job, it wasn't their fault", Jimmy kept saying. He was right she did give the wrong person a bad time sometimes, but then again sometimes it was his fault. But even at home, there were times he was too wimpy. They had a fight just before she suggested they separate and he gave in very quickly, as usual, accepting the blame. Babs had been ready for a good fight but then she had gotten mad at him telling him to fight; he wasn't always to blame for their disagreements.

She shook her head it was a mystery that she could feel so contradictory. He was a good man, he treated her well, very romantic at times, he could make her laugh, and he made love to her well. That seemed to be one of the very few areas he had confidence in himself. Even though at times he was too good. He seemed to think he had to do most of the work. She needed to make love to him at times too, but he always wanted to make love to her, not counting the times their passion got the best of them and they just had a quickie or a hard fuck. He treated others well too, but he was just so wimpy! He lacked self-confidence in most areas therefore; he had a tendency to cling to her and to want her to make all the major decisions. She didn't like his being clingy all the time. He was not easily jealous nor easily angered. He usually remembered her birthday and their anniversary even though he had, at times, forgotten other important events. He was patient even though sometimes she thought he was just trying to avoid a disagreement.

She settled into her room, unpacking and double-checking the schedule for the conference. They had a free evening. She and Jimmy had decided to meet at the resort's nightclub after dinner. He wasn't sure when he was getting in, and neither had known for sure what number their rooms would be. She went out to grab a quick bite to eat even though it was early. When she got back to her room, she decided to relax until she had to get dressed for the meeting. She lay on her back and surprised herself by falling asleep. She hadn't gotten much sleep on the long flight here, but she thought she would be too nervous to fall asleep. She woke with a start and looked at the time. Oops, she barely had time to get dressed! She jumped off the bed and hurriedly dressed, choosing what she knew was Jimmy's favorite dress. She had of course bought some new ones during the eight months they had been separated, but decided on this dress. It was slightly clingy, showing off her curves but not too much to make her look like a slut. He enjoyed the red and brown colors as well as its clinginess. She rushed to the restaurant-nightclub taking a wrong turn at one point, so she arrived ten minutes later than planned.

She walked in and quickly surveyed the room. It was small, but had a dance floor and a live band. They were playing dance music that didn't sound too bad. There were also small tables and a short bar in one corner. Some of the tables were set very close to the stage. No Jimmy, not at the bar, not at any table. She looked again, more carefully, it had been eight months since he had seen him after all, and he had said something about losing some weight in one letter. Still nothing she thought about calling the front desk to see if he had gotten in since he was never this late to meetings. No matter what type of meeting.

Suddenly though, something drew her eyes to the dance floor, she had rejected him being there since he didn't like to dance, for he was too self-conscious. As she scanned it she spotted, something that made her mouth drop open. She just stared. It couldn't be, but it was. Jimmy was out there dancing. With not one, but two women. After she recovered from those two shocks, she realized that one reason it had taken her a while to see him was that he had lost weight, and not just a little weight either. It was more like fifty pounds, maybe more. She was soon over her shock and started to move through the dancers, towards her husband. As soon as she started moving, he quit dancing and kissed both girls. It wasn't a tonsil prober, but each kiss was three times as long as a peck would be.

She hadn't noticed but he had spotted her as she came in. He was watching her through the corner of his eyes as she finally saw him. As soon as she begun to move his way he stopped dancing and then kissed each girl, on purpose, knowing she would see him do it. It was part of his plan to show her that he had changed in more ways than just losing weight. It would also throw her off balance for a while as they talked.

Babs made it through the people and stood in front of him. Each said "hi." After a moment, where neither seemed to know what to say she suggested they get a table. Jimmy nodded in agreement and then led them to one he had used earlier.

As soon as they were seated, a waitress came by and they ordered drinks, he got a cool drink and she a mixed drink. They talked some about their flights here; he had come on one that had arrived in the morning. Both flights had been good. She talked about what was happening at the hospital, they were getting a new lunch lounge. She also caught him up on some of the stuff happening to other staff that they both knew. He knew some of that already, for he had talked to some of their friends during the eight months and had seen two people from the hospital after he arrived here. One of the two girls he was dancing with worked at the hospital. Babs thought back at the two girls and realized he was right. She was a new nurse on her first job since graduating. Babs didn't know her that well.

She said, "I see that you lost a bunch of weight after all, and you're buff too. You look very good."

He sounded a little cold as he answered, "Right after we separated, I sent you a card explaining that I was going to a weight loss retreat up in the mountains."

She looked puzzled almost shocked. "I never read that."

"I had been planning on going for a while but couldn't think of a reason without telling you. Your idea to separate sounded like the perfect opportunity."

She hadn't read any card but it did explain why he hadn't seemed that upset over her suggestion to separate for a time. While Babs had been explaining her reasons for the separation tears had come to his eyes twice, but his reaction hadn't been as bad as she expected. That had puzzled her and she wondered if he really wanted a break from her too.

"I don't know what happened to the card you sent, but I never saw it. I never knew where you were, but I'm glad you went. You do look good."

That was true she had called his cell phone and had an number for emergencies plus an address for letters but she had no idea where he was actually located. And it was true he looked good.

There was a pause and she said, "I missed you."

Babs noticed a tightening of his mouth and a hard look for a moment and wondered why he would react like that when she said she missed him. They talked more about various things and then she said, "The house is ok. I've been there every few days to make sure the sprinklers work and the gardeners are still coming. I've even slept there a few nights to make sure everything was ok."

She noticed his eyes again tighten but she went on, "I missed you in the bed, it's not the same sleeping without you."

She had planned to say that to reassure him that she hadn't decided to leave him yet. That there still was hope for their relationship but she saw by the way the skin tightened around his eyes that it hadn't reassured him. His expression didn't change, but she could see the tenseness on his face and she wondered why.

After some more talk about the house, she took one of his hands in both of hers then looked him directly in his eyes.

"I really did miss you. It really is different sleeping alone in our bed."

She saw some relief come to his face, but then as if another thought hit him the tenseness was back. Did he think I would sleep with someone else in our bed? she wondered.

They talked more and then she decided it was time to go back to her room, it was late and she was sleepy. He offered to walk her back, which she appreciated. But on the way back, she kept trying to decide if they should have sex. After all the time seperated she assumed he would want to but should they at this stage of their relationship? After all, they were still separated. She wouldn't mind if he insisted, she was horny and wanted him but this time decided to follow his lead.

She was very surprised though as they reached her door, he said "good night", kissed her on the cheek, and then walked off. She touched the cheek and stared after him, wondering if he wanted to have sex with her.

The next day the conference started and they weren't able talk much outside of saying "hi." That evening after dinner, they again met in the nightclub and again talked. Babs was reminded of one of the things she had liked about Jimmy in the beginning. As he described some of the antics of some of the others at the weight loss resort, he had her almost on the floor laughing. He usually could make her laugh and many times knew what to say to cheer her up. She talked some of what she had been doing those eight months and apologized for not making up her mind about them. For a moment, she saw sadness and something else in his eyes. Resentment or anger maybe, she wasn't sure. He talked about how he had been forced to date during the weight loss retreat. The people who ran it insisted on it for it was a way of building self-esteem, which would in turn help the participants to lose weight. That evening he again walked her back to her room and again just kissed her on the cheek, just before he said "good night" and walked off.

The next day they both attended the same seminary and when she arrived early, she saved a seat for him. He however, didn't even look for her as he came in and ended up sitting on the opposite side of the room. She had been looking for him and tried to wave at him once, but he wasn't looking her way. He had come seconds before the meeting was scheduled to start. She wasn't sure if that was why he had grabbed a seat without looking for her.

That night they had dinner together and danced for the first time in years. She wore a new outfit that she had gotten recently, a sexy pantsuit that he hadn't seen. It had the colors that he liked and was tight in all the right places. He wasn't a bad dancer after all. Babs was glad that he had learned to dance at the retreat. He had explained that it was not only to help lose weight but also to build self-esteem. They didn't dance long. She realized something wasn't right about how he danced but wasn't sure what. After only three trips around the floor, he suggested they leave. She wanted to dance more but decided he must be tired or something. This time when they got to her room and he bent over to kiss her cheek, she turned her head so his lips touched hers. He paused for a second but then continued the kiss. When he ended it, she picked up where he left off. Soon they were kissing passionately. They spent ten minutes by the door kissing, each pushing their tongue into the other's mouth. She stopped for a moment, then opened the door to go in. He followed to her surprise, not that she minded. Once inside he kicked the door closed and while still kissing her backed her up to the couch in the outer room. He kissed her harder and when she tried to push her tongue past his lips he fought her with his, ending up pushing his tongue into her mouth.

Babs' eyes widened for a moment in surprise at his continual aggressiveness, but she left those thoughts behind as she allowed herself to slip back into the euphoria he was creating in her. It had been so long and she missed him. Not just because she was horny but it felt so good to have his lips against hers, and his body pressing against hers in almost uncontrolled passion. She realized that she had missed his lips, his hands, and his body against hers, as she had been kissing the other guys.

A second later, all of those thoughts left her mind as she felt herself in free fall. He had pushed her backwards. She felt shock for a moment until her butt hit the couch. He had known it was there, and just wanted her on it. A second later, he joined her, kissing her hard and grabbing a breast. She was again surprised by his aggressiveness and again, she didn't mind.

He gently squeezed the breast, massaging it through her blouse and bra. She had worn a low cut blouse hoping this would happen. He brought his hand up and began to caress the upper parts of her breasts. She groaned, that felt good, it hadn't been done for months and not by him for even longer. She took a moment to be grateful that she hadn't allowed any guy to go much further than he was now. This was Jimmy's territory, at least for now and maybe by the way she felt the past few days, for the rest of their lives.

She groaned and taking that as a confirmation that he was doing what she wanted, he slipped his hand down her blouse and under her bra. She jumped slightly as he touched, and then gently pinched one nipple. He started to withdraw his hand but she moaned out a soft "no" so he put it back and squeezed that nipple between his forefinger and thumb again and again. Seconds later though, he removed his hand again and she said "no" again but he continued to slip it out. She looked at him with puzzlement but he kissed her again and as he sucked on her tongue, she realized why he had removed his hand. She could feel him unbuttoning her blouse. At the same time, one hand slipped down her leg. It started on her stomach as he massaged around her belly button, through her top for a moment. The hand slipped down to her hip, then down one leg. It had gone slowly as he had kissed her and pinched her nipple she almost hadn't felt it at all as she concentrated on the feelings in her breasts. The hand was moving slowly, caressing her leg through her pants. She almost jumped again as she felt the hand crawl toward that spot between her legs. She moaned as his hand massaged her inner thigh. Even through the material if felt good. At one point, she almost said out loud that he didn't have to seduce her like that, she wanted him, but at the same time Babs was enjoying the feelings. It was good to be able to relax and allow what he was doing, instead of fighting her feelings as she had on her dates.