As a new submissive, I held a little fear and bitterness about my (perceived) weakness. I wrote my first story at the request of a Dominant who, I believe, wanted to encourage me to dream. I succeeded in that but also found a way to explore feelings I didn't know what to do with.
I chose my pen name during the period where I was worried about my weakness. Lessa is a strong, fiery character that I have always enjoyed reading about. Using that name reminds me that I am still me, just a little more aware of who that is.