DEMONMASTER62: Blog

Here in Orlando we got quite a bit of wind and rain, but looks like the worst may be over for us within the next 2-3 hours. People over on the coast got pounded though.

interestingly every weather caster that I'm seeing now seems much more concerned with the "hook" that Matthew is going to make, their whole tone changes when they talk about that. I'm thinking that is very much NOT GOOD. Yes I am aware that the grammar in that sentence sucked, but it is the only way to describe what I'm seeing and hearing from the people we trust to tell us these things.

Yes, it's been awhile. I know that I once said that Demons don't apologize, but I'd like to add to that. We do give explanations, especially to loyal readers of my offerings.

For those that don't know, I have Multiple Sclerosis, a rather insidious disease. On top of which, I am a Veteran of the US Navy, so therefore dependent upon the VA system for my healthcare.

When I was first diagnosed, I was put on the best medicine out there, even if it is a daily shot that I must do myself. It kept me from making too quick of a slide into the things that MS can do to you, though I would have an attack now and then, but nothing I couldn't handle.

Then last November, the VA (in it's infinite stupidity and just plain not giving a shit) changed to a generic. Now people love to tell you that generics have everything the brand names do...I call bullshit! I have noticed more of a difference in how it works for me. More attacks, a seemingly faster progression of the disease...etc...etc.

I begged my Primary care giver to please put me back on the brand name, and I was told very sternly that if I want to keep receiving this very expensive med, I'll take what they give me and say thank you.

So as I'm dealing with this, and becoming severely depressed because of it, My Step Father (the only father I've ever known) put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger on the weekend of July the 4th.

Big mindfuck, and not the fun kind. My real father committed suicide when I was 4, and then my mother marries this man who visited horrors on me and two of my brothers that I can't even bring myself to type here.

Still, the only father I've ever known. How do you deal with that? Well, I totally withdrew, and told my brothers I wanted nothing to do with anything as to services or anything else. My youngest brother who was actually HIS son with my mother, never went through what us older ones did, I being the oldest.

So he's never believed it, and never will. And will probably never speak to me again because refused to be involved in the grieving over this man...yet I silently grieved anyway.

How sick is that?

Two fathers, two suicides. Starts to make one wonder, you know?

At any rate I've finally worked my way out of my funk, and am trying to get back into the swing of the things.

I'm not looking for sympathy, so please don't.

Just continue to enjoy my story, and you'll help more than you could ever know.

The Demon

Chapter 47 is in the blender and should be up soon.

Thank you for reading my drivel;
The Demon

How diminished would our lives be if this gentleman hadn't taken a chance and risked his career on 4 rough youths with a dream, so many years ago?

They always talk about what a great band that there must be in Heaven with all of the artists that we've lost...Well, now they finally have the producer to whip them into shape and really bring the rock back into the roll.

Chapter 46 is going through the blender and will be up soon. Apologies for the shortness of this chapter, but the lady and the events in question, deserved their own chapter with nothing else to take away from them.

As always, Thank you for reading.

The Demon