Chapter 1

When I was 10 my parents separated and then divorced. My mother lived in my hometown until I was 13 and then she got a job in Seattle and we moved there. My brother who is 7 years older than me was stationed there in the navy. My mother is a nurse and got a job in a good hospital. Her shift was from 6pm to 6am which didn't bother me because I was a sleep most of the time she was gone.

My brother kept some of his stuff with us and there was a bedroom for him if he wanted to sleep off base. I would often sneak into his room and look thru his Playboy and Penthouse collections and read the forms. That was how I learned a lot about sex and I liked looking at the naked bodies wondering when mine would be like that. I was an A cup at 12 and a B when I turned 14. My waist was small but my hips spread some so I had a shape but not D cups like my mom. I have always looked older than I really was. I could pass for 17 when I was 14 with a little makeup I could pass for 21 when I was 18.

One night I was reading a penthouse story and got horny. I had masturbated buy rubbing my nipples and clit but I was still whole. I masturbated and came to the picture of the centerfold wondering what it would be like to be that pretty and sexy and a different man every night. I got lonely and went into my mothers room and jumped into her bed. My hand hit something under her pillow. It was a dilldo! I was shocked and excited at the same time. My mom got herself off with a fake dick. She never dated so it would make sense. It was about 8" long and circumcised and looked real. I ran my fingers up and down the shaft. My heart was racing. My pussy was wet from masturbating earlier. I took the tip and stuck it to my lips and sucked in the head. Then I pulled it out and sucked it in again a little farther. I tried to deep throat it but started to gag. My eyes watered as I remembered a story from a woman telling how it happened to her when she was with her boyfriend. I tried it a couple more times and soon I was giving it good head.

My pussy was twitching so I pulled my panties down and put it next to my slit. I moved it up and down my slit hitting my clit and curling my toes. I pushed it in just a little. It felt big and nice compared to my lady products and my fingers. I worked the head in and out a few times and then started to go deeper. Should I do it? Or should I stop? I decided to go even deeper. It felt sooo good. Then I hit it. I had worked it down to my hymen. I hurt a little but not much. I wanted to be a woman but I also wanted to share with my someone special some day. I pulled it out and looked at it. It was all shinny from my juices. I wanted to cum with it so I slid it back in. It is such a nice feeling to have a cock inside of me even if it was fake. So I slowly pounded away at my hymen until it gave way. I hurt some but not as bad as I thought. Now the dildo was buried in me deep. I was tender at first pushing and pulling it out of my pussy but then my orgasm started building quickly from my excitement and when I came a let out a little scream. That was the best I had ever had to that point. I rested for a min with it in me then pulled it out. I washed it in the sink and the water was pink. I put it back under the pillow and went back to my room. I tried to sleep but could not so I went and did it again.

When I went to school on Monday I felt different, more womanly. I started to dress differently but I still couldn't date. My mom said I had to be 16 since she worked all night. I had boy's I hung out with but no boyfriends to kiss and have.