Chapter 1

My head feels strangely fuzzy and only now parts of my body are beginning to have dull feelings. I'm vaguely aware I'm moving, but the motion and sensation is alien to me. A slight pain spreads from my backside pooling in my testicles; I feel pressure and warmth. There's someone mumbling something increasingly louder behind me. I feel hot.

"Jonathan-Jonathan, yes," he moans, moving faster. He grabs the lifeless shell's hips, lifting them, and forces himself deeper with a longer stroke. "Your pussy, mmm so good" he licks his lips and feels Jonathan tighten around him. The shell looks so much like Jonathan, even its hair is the same length. The way his muscles wrap sinewy around the athletic body, even the sparse freckles and tattoos – the very sight of the shell lying still excites him. The thought of former trysts with the real Jonathan spent in Melfroppe arouses him further. He spits in his hand and wraps it around 'Jonathan's' penis. "Cum for me," he loves this part. Sometimes Jonathan is cooperative and they cum together, but other times it takes more effort, and Jonathan finishes in his mouth.

I can feel some things but my vision and understanding are foggy at best. It feels like I'm being attacked. I try to speak but it's truncated by the feeling of a strange pleasure and losing what little control I have of my concentration. I'm not being attacked, but there's a burly figure holding me from behind. The wet thick warm hand forces cum from me in spurts. The mumbling behind me turns to groaning sounds and then I feel fullness. The sensation of warm fluids flowing into me and caresses and a name, 'John?' I can't make it out. I'm being cradled from behind and have finally put it together. Have I just been raped? Why is he talking to me? The forced pleasure loses its grip on me - the anger boiling inside me fuels my panic. The predator hugs me tighter. I'm panicking but unable to move; I'm trapped in myself, furious.

"Jonathan, you're so beautiful," he rubs his face on the twitching body. "I was thinking about you all week and I'm so happy we can be together like this. I can't stay long but I promise I'll work harder to see you later this week. If I could I'd take you out of here tonight. A few more days and I will." He lays Jonathan by his side and brushes his black hair back, kissing his neck before reclining on the now sweat and cum soiled sheets. He always brings new sheets, every time, and he'll change these after he gives Jonathan a bath. He runs his hand from Jonathan's face down his chest fingering his freckles and lingers at his hands. They twitch slowly at first. He narrows his eyes, focusing on them and jumps back, toppling off the bed onto the floor "What's- Jo—Hello? Hello? Did you move?" He gets back up, his face moves closer to the clenching fingers, and he moves backwards to take in the enormity of what's happening.