@jcourson50You may be too hard on yourself.
The **ONLY** way you get better is to practice/write.
Your music metaphor is fantastic.
Do you think Eddie Van Halen or Slash picked up his guitar and started being a rock god immediately?
Or did they muck it up, and have to practice, and work at getting their fingers and thumbs to do what they needed them to do?
Very few people just pick up the guitar and play it well without practice. Write, Write, Write, and then read, read, read - learn from other stories and how the authors show the reader without telling them -apply those techniques - you likely won't be amazing at first.
If you only do something because you are a natural at it, you'll be a failure at almost everything.
Don't sweat it - work on the story of your dreams, write it how you want. I love collaboration and it would be great to have a muse to bounce ideas back and forth with - but it's super hard to find someone interested in what you are and the type of story you may want to tell.
The best advice I can give you is - don't worry about it/say fuck it.
write the story, if you "muck it up" - so what? find some mentors/authors, and learn from it, and get better. You won't do that by not writing and letting them do the lion share of it after you start the idea.
Also, AI is super helpful as a mentor if you get stuck and know how to grease it so it doesn't trigger any of it's internal algorithms, and will even help you with refining dialogue. It never gets bored and it's always online when you are. Don't let it write your entire story, but put a paragraph in the AI and ask it to refine it with context and writing samples and see what happens. You might use some of it/all of it.
When I first started, I didn't have MS word and I received a lot of negative feedback - which I took to heart and gave them power over me to make me doubt myself.
Don't do that - don't make the mistake that I made.
Lastly, the best way to write the story is to pretend you are sitting across from someone in a bar, telling them a particularly dirty story about the most interesting time in someone's life. Then just write what you would say to tell the story.