Throughout my professional career, I've had one goal. It's what my degree is in, it's what I intended to move towards in the company in which I've worked for the past 20 years, and it's what my professional training has all been targeting. I thought I was well-prepared so when a promotion opportunity opened at my company in the field I always wanted, I jumped into it with both feet.
To mis-quite Blizzard Entertainment: I was not prepared.
The Wuhan Flu is partially to blame because it has made everything more difficult but, honestly, I had bitten off more than I could chew. It sapped my will and my creativity. I've not written more than a few pages in months.
I've not opened SOL except to briefly read a few stories. I've not checked my email except in passing (though I had a bit more than a few waiting for my attention). I came to the point where I didn't want to write - I just wanted to read to lose myself in the story for a time. My Kindle has gotten a LOT of use in the past 1/2 year. When I finished with work, I just wanted to sit in my comfortable recliner, kick back and read or watch mindless, mind-numbing television.
When I did get the urge to write, I tended to go back to the things I've already written and try to make them better. I'm never happy with the words my fingers type out. I never think it's good enough to make it out to others. I'm still amazed anyone read, much less liked, Runesward - Tome 1, Pretty CAPable and Fairly CAPable.
I'm glad some of you did. I'm just amazed at it. I see so many flaws...
I'm sorry to those of you who've been waiting for the adventures of Yren or Calix to continue. I'm slowly getting to the point where I can go back and pick up where I left off 1/2 a year ago or so. I'm going to try to make a concerted effort to write SOMETHING every day - but we'll see how far that goes...
Thank you for reading,
Kenn Ghannon