I took the knife upon my skin
And sliced from there to here
To remember how it felt again
When you whispered in my ear -rr

Paul had decided to take me out and I felt terribly excited by the idea. I knelt in the shower, washing his legs and working my hands up to his genitals, caressing his balls and cock with my soapy hands. I felt him lengthening, as I knew he would, but he ignored it. The hot water felt good as it sprayed across his broad shoulders and down onto me. I stroked his cock a few moments and then he turned so I could clean his ass, pressing my slippery soapy finger into his tight anus. I always started from bottom to top because he liked it that way. By the time I finished, washing his dark hair gently and rinsing it with stiff fingers, he was ready. I grabbed a condom off the porcelain ledge and ripped the slippery foil open with my teeth, putting it on him.

He turned me around and pushed his penis in my steamy pussy. Thrusting hard until I was moaning with delight. He didn't last long, in the shower he never did, and before I could climax he was already cumming, filling the condom uselessly with his hot seed. I washed his penis with my mouth after that, then put the used rubber in my mouth and he stepped out without a word, leaving me to my own bath ritual. I brought myself off with my fingers, savoring the taste of my husband's sperm and then cleaned myself thoroughly. I had to hurry because Paul might or might not wait for me. I never knew.

In my bedroom I found he had already laid out the clothes he wanted me to wear. An emerald thong and a tiny matching dress of some spandex material that hugged my body like a second skin. I adjusted it over my 32B breasts, seeing the rings in my nipples as uneven protrusions that spoiled the smooth swell. I almost wished I could remove them, but that was an impossibility. I pulled the dress down, over my narrow hips and the hem barely covered my pert little ass. I would have to be very careful how I sat that evening. There was a pair of black shoes and a set of handcuffs, and a black leather collar with silver studs. I put them all on, except the handcuffs. I did my make-up first, some blush, some eye shadow and some pale pink lipstick.

I carried the handcuffs into my husband's bedroom where he was finishing his own dressing routine. He wore a black suit, simple Armani, and exquisitely tailored. Jennifer was helping him with his tie and I ignored her, standing there with my head bowed slightly.

"Why are you bringing the bitch?" Jennifer asked my husband, smoothing her hands down his broad chest.

"Because I feel like it," he said distantly, looking at himself in the mirror.

"You should just leave her here. I could take care of her," Jennifer walked over to me and grabbed my jaw in her hand, digging her fingers and thumb into my cheeks so I had to open my mouth slightly.

"Fucking whore," she spit in my mouth and let me go. Jenny had been my best friend since I was 16, but now, 5 years later, I called her Mistress Jennifer.

"Thank you, Mistress," I said softly, swallowing her spittle.

"You take your meds?" Paul stared at me in the mirror.

"Yes, Master."

"Why do you let her take those? She's not sick, she's just pretending so everyone will feel sorry for her. Like last year when she tried to kill herself," she laughed at me. "You'd think after three tries even a fucking idiot would get it right."

That had been 10 minutes after I'd caught Paul fucking Jennifer in our wedding bed. She'd been my Maid of Honor. I had done it right too, just ask the hospital. They'd poured plasma in me just as fast as they could while two trauma surgeons tried to give me new veins. They told me they were lucky. That I was lucky. I didn't feel very lucky sometimes.

"Be quiet Jennifer," Paul walked over and took the handcuffs from me, pulling my arms around my back and slipping the heavy stainless steel around my wrists.

He started to leave, picking up his leash from the dresser and expecting me to follow.

"Just a sec," Jennifer smiled and kicked me as hard as she could between my legs. Stars exploded in my head and everything went black. I couldn't breathe at all. I was lying on the floor, feeling the wetness in my eyes. "Cold out tonight, that'll keep you warm," she flopped on the bed and started reading her Cosmo, reaching for a cigarette.

Paul stood in the doorway waiting for me. "Come on, Lisa. We're going to be late," he left the room and I heard his footsteps receding down the stairs.

It hurts getting kicked in the cunt. I don't know how it feels for guys, getting it in the balls, but if it's half as bad as being busted in the cunt, they have my sympathy. I was a little shaky going down the stairs in 3" heels with my hands cuffed behind my back. Having sharp little bolts of pain lance through my pelvis with each downward step didn't help either.

Paul was already waiting at the curb in his car and he didn't bother opening the door. I had to turn around and do it from behind, then get in and pull the bottom with my foot before I could reach it and pull it closed. The whole time Paul sat there, not saying anything, but looking a little pissed that I was slowing him down.

"I wish you'd get along better with Jen," he told me as we drove. "She's pregnant."

I almost turned to stare at my husband, but I knew better. I stared straight ahead.

"I'm going to get you pregnant too, Lisa," he touched my bare leg. "You might already be; I replaced your birth control pills with a placebo about a month ago. I'm surprised you didn't have a period yet."

"What? But ... It ... it could be anyone's," I winced at the unexpected news.

"Anyone's but mine," he chuckled.

I'd been shocked and then dreading his response at my outburst, but Paul seemed inclined to let me speak for once. So I felt brave. "Why?" I asked.

Over the last month I'd had sex with several dozen different men at least, most of them strangers and completely unknown to me. It had been unusual, since Paul had previously protected me, somewhat. Now I understood. Paul knew the men, of course, or at least I assumed he did, but maybe not. They'd had his approval though, that much was certain.

"Once you're ready to start nursing we'll abort it," he lit a cigarette and cracked the car window. "Jen wants the baby, but she wants to get back in shape as soon as possible too. So you'll nurse the child."

"But that could be ... I'd be like 7 or 8 months. That's too late to..."

"No, it's not," he stared at me. "You're not having a baby. Ever. You're just a cunt. Don't even get it in your pretty little head, understand me, Lisa?"

"Yes," I whispered.

"Tonight we're going to a friend's house. A very special friend. You'll do whatever anyone there tells you to do. Someone at this house will die tonight. I don't know who. I've already agreed that it could be you. That's the price of attending."

There were acres of private grounds and a man at the wrought iron gates who checked our invitation carefully before letting us in. The house was a few miles outside of Olympia, up in the wooded hills, and it was large, colonial and imposing. A valet took our car and a doorman again checked our invitation and checked us against a list. He entreated us to enjoy ourselves. I blushed as he looked at me, standing there in my short green dress and handcuffed. Paul attached the leash to my neck and walked through the large doorway tugging me gently along behind him.

The interior was lavish and vaguely European, I thought, and tastefully done. I followed Paul into a large sitting room and there met our host who was alone.

He was older, rather heavyset with jowls and a short gray goatee. He had droopy eyes, as though the world in its entirety bored him utterly. I thought he looked out of place, actually. He and my husband spoke for a moment before I was introduced.

"Basil, may I present my wife, Lisa," Paul smiled at me and I knelt obediently, lowering my head.

"Yes, a wife. Interesting," he took the leash from Paul's hand and gave it a little pull so that I rose and followed him to a door. He opened it and immediately a very young woman appeared, breathless and red-faced, smiling happily. She was attired in little more than white lace panties. She was also quite beautiful, white as snow with hard pink nipples and a sweet innocent face topped with soft red hair. Her green eyes twinkled at me.

"Patricia, introduce this to my wife, please. Keep her..." he looked at me without humor, " ... busy."

"Yes sir," the girl gave a little bow and took my leash from his hand, pulling me inside with great enthusiasm and closing the door, locking three deadbolts.

I opened my mouth, as if to speak, thinking perhaps I would have some freedom in that room away from the men.

"Shut-up!" Patricia said, slapping my face before a single syllable had even left my mouth. I felt myself blushing and angry at my foolish presumption. "Crawl." I got down and she led me on my knees across the room.

It looked liked post-modern medieval decor, devoid of anything of decorative purposes. The walls were bare stone of roughly hewn granite and gray. The ceiling was wood and bare bright bulbs hung down, casting harsh white light everywhere. The floor was cement, hard and cold beneath my hands and knees as I followed the girl. She moved quickly and I scampered to keep up.

"Mistress, this is..." the girl frowned and kicked my arm.

"Lisa," I said softly.

"Lisa," the girl tugged my leash and I looked up to see an older woman dressed as a Domme Fatale, all black leather and posing. I sighed inwardly, not particularly fond of people like that. I only played these silly costume drama games because it made Paul happy. We had no need of such things.

"Strip her and noose her," the woman said coldly. "I'm almost done here."

I heard a soft mewling sound coming from a large oak table just beyond the Domme. But I couldn't wonder too long about it, Patricia had found a knife and was cutting away my dress, ripping it off my body as I knelt there and then cutting through my panties as well. She yanked my leash and I crawled a few feet until she was satisfied and then removed my collar. The girl fitted a thick rough rope around my neck and stepped behind me, out of sight. I heard a motor someplace and the rope went suddenly tight, yanking me to my feet and then off the floor as I choked on the air trapped within my lungs. My legs kicked and I felt my spine popping as the little bones were pulled in and out of joint.

"Not too high, Patricia," the Domme said. And I was lowered until I could stand tiptoe in my shoes. The rope slacked just enough so I could breath and the cool air felt good. My face was flushed and I blinked back the sudden tears the experience had caused.

On the table I could see another pretty girl, who might have been Patricia's twin in every respect. The same beautiful face, the same reddish hair and green eyes. Her nipples firm and pointed pink. But she had no arms or legs, she was a quad-amputee, and she lay there breathing hard as the older woman dripped hot wax on her shaved pussy. It was soon covered completely and the Domme shoved the lit end of the candle into the girl's sex, extinguishing the flame in her vagina and leaving it there, sticking out between the short stumps of her thighs.

Patricia stood behind me, feeling my body with her hands. "I think we should remove her breasts, Mistress," she cupped my firm small boobs, squeezing them. "Cut them off and make her eat them," she kissed my shoulder.

"Perhaps," the older woman said. "They're very small though. Are you a boy?" she looked at me. Her breasts were large and full, proudly bare as they propped on the bustier of her gleaming leather corset. She wore no panties and her sex was a dense thickness of black pubic hair.

I shook my head slightly, feeling the rough rope irritating my delicate skin.

"No. Of course you're not." She looked at my pussy. "1132," she read aloud. "You get mail in that slot?"

Patricia giggled uncontrollably. "Junk mail!" she rubbed my ass. "Special deliveries in the rear!"

I shook my head again, "It's a number I like."

"You read Joyce," she laughed. "Pretentious little bitch, isn't she Patricia?"

"Let's cut out her eyes!" the girl whispered loudly to the Domme, her breath hot in my ear. Patricia pulled the rings in my nipples hard, so that I thought she'd rip them right out of my flesh. I gasped and struggled slightly, almost losing my balance.

The older woman acted as if she hadn't heard her. "So pretty though," the Domme caressed my face and kissed me. "Let's pump her."

Patricia giggled, "Pumping ... Pumping ... Let's go pumping!" she sang crazily and I wondered at it as she moved to a long workbench that ran the length of the far wall. She came back carrying a metal leg spreader and dragging what looked like a length of small red hose across the floor behind her. "Pump ... Pump ... Pump..." she chanting breathlessly and I realized the poor girl was quite probably insane.

Domme took the leg spreader and pushed my legs wide apart so that suddenly I was dangling once again by my neck. I was gagging and choking but they didn't seem to notice until the woman finally said something and Patricia lowered me a few precious inches.

The hose was rubber and had a metal fitting with a small lever valve and then another piece of rubber beyond that with a smallish plastic cup attached on the very end. "You'll love this," the Domme promised and she fitted the cup over my vulva, pressing hard so the plastic edge of it was snug to my soft flesh. I winced slightly, still feeling bruised from Jennifer's kick.

"Open the valve, Patricia." And the pretty girl did just that. A motor started whirring someplace, like when you get your tire inflated at a gas station, but this wasn't pushing air, it was a suction pump and the cup suddenly sealed itself to me completely.

It made me jerk with surprise and at first it felt just strange, but soon it began to ache as it felt like my vagina was being pulled out of my body. The clear plastic was filled with my cunt as it was stretched and distended by the pressure. My clit was jolted to life and I started shaking, trying to twist myself free as the ache became a general distress, painful and deliberate.

"Suck that cunt, Mistress! Suck it all out!" Angela laughed and clapped her hands gleefully.

I started crying out as I thought my flesh was ripping. The interior of my pussy felt like it was on fire and I wondered if the device could indeed rend my flesh like the girl wanted. I was screaming finally, pitifully flailing on that noose with my feet shuffling on the smooth floor. The compressor had settled into a rapid chug-chug-chug with each distinct pump of its piston jerking the hose and my body violently.

"Okay, that's about enough," the Domme turned the little valve and the insistent pressure stopped, but my cunt was still sealed tightly within that plastic cup. It still hurt terribly and I groaned as spittle ran from my slack lips.

I waited for them to remove me from that cruel device, but instead the older woman sent Patricia scampering off for her clamps. The pain between my legs was bad, but I was growing used to it. At least the increasing pressure had ceased; clamping couldn't be that bad, nothing could be that bad I thought.

The Domme stroked my body tenderly, feeling how warm and sticky with perspiration I'd become. Patricia returned from the workbench carrying a large device, two pieces of smooth blonde wood joined by two large screws, one at each end. They had little wheels on them for turning, like wing nuts I suppose, and the two women placed the oversized clamp on both of my breasts while my mind still tried to comprehend what was going to happen.

"Okay, Patricia, let's see if we can close this thing, hmmm... ?" the Domme chuckled and Patricia aped her, cackling like an old woman as she held the clamp in place. The older woman turned the knobs quickly at first until the wood began to press hard enough into my breasts that it would hold itself in position, then she told Patricia to let go, turning them more slowly.

It was uncomfortable at first and soon became overwhelming as they began to squeeze and then finally crush my breasts, flattening and distorting my body horribly. It was like nothing I'd ever experience and whatever pain I still felt between my legs seemed like paradise in comparison. I screamed long and hard, until my throat was sore and my head pounded from the effort. I stared as she kept turning, beyond even the point I would have imagined impossible. I was begging her to stop, babbling and sobbing. My breasts turned red and then purple and almost black with the pressure. They were an inch thick and then less than that, flattened until they seemed to fill the narrow space from end to end. I could see my flesh balloon on the otherside as if emerging from a wringer. My nipples puffed out to 2 or 3 times their original size, horribly disfigured by the torture of my breasts.

"Would you like me to stop, 1132?" the Domme smiled at me, using her finger to wipe a bit of spit from my chin. I couldn't lift my head any longer and the rope was cutting into my neck. "Just say the safe word, I'll stop." And then she turned the knobs again so that I jerked and sputtered and wept like a child.

There was no safe word. They hadn't given me one. And truthfully I'd never in my life wanted one. Not until right then. This woman was destroying my tits, killing me I thought. I couldn't survive this. I tried speaking, to tell her that I didn't know the safe word, but nothing came out except weak little sobs that I could barely recognize as my own.

"I think that's as far as it goes," the Domme said, turning the knobs one last time.

"They're beautiful Mistress," Patricia said. The girl took one of my nipples between her lips and that small contact was evil. She bit me gently and it felt as though she'd taken a blowtorch to my flesh. My knees weakened and I fell, hanging there, too weak to bring myself to stand again. I didn't care. My lungs heaved and added to my misery, I was dying finally.

I woke up lying on the floor. The noose was no longer around my neck, nor was leg spreader attached to my ankles. I looked around weakly and Patricia was sitting nearby on a wooden stool, sharpening a wooden stake with what looked like a machete. I looked down at my sex and it was puffy and angry red, but free of the plastic cup. My neck hurt and my breasts ached like someone had beaten me with a tire iron. The clamp was gone, but my once firm round globes were misshapen and hung like flaps of bruised flesh.

"Oh goody! You're awake!" Patricia smiled at me. "Mistress went to get some wine and mingle. I'm here to keep you company. Come on!" she put her stake and knife on the stool and walked over to me. The little redhead grabbed the short chain between my wrists, yanking my arms up so that my shoulders popped, the muscles stretching painfully. I rose unsteadily to my feet with her help.

"I love your tits, 1132," she giggled and stood behind me, massaging my breasts painfully. "I like them so much I'm going to tell Mistress to let me have them."

She grabbed her big knife off the stool, more like a sword really, holding it up so I could see it. "I'm going to cut them off." She moved around behind me again, pressing her breasts to my back, grinding her panty-covered sex to my handcuffed hands. She held the edge of the blade under my breasts, pushing up just enough I could feel the blade against my skin.

She kissed my neck. "I could do it now and nobody could stop me," she giggled and licked my skin. "I cut off my sisters legs!" She removed the machete and danced around, over to the table where the other girl still lay, apparently sleeping as I could see the soft rise and fall of her breasts. "I cut off her arms too!" she lifted the knife over her head, looking down. "Pretty soon I'll cut off her head!"

I walked over slowly, looking at the girl closer. Her stumps were covered with cotton bandages, thick and white and the one on her left arm looked a little stained, as though spotted with blood. They had to be twins and Patricia lowered the machete slowly. She bent down and kissed the girl on the lips softly. "Wake up Katherine," she whispered. "Wake up, it's time for dinner."

Patricia looked at me and pointed with the machete. "Climb up here. On the table, put your cunt on her face." I moved slowly putting one knee next to the girl's head and leaning forward on my other leg, then quickly bringing that knee up as well, just barely keeping my balance. "Her face, get on it!" she was slapping me. "Katherine's hungry!"

The girl beneath me groaned and her body moved slightly, her stumps waving back and forth a little. I settled my swollen vulva over the girl's mouth and Patricia pushed me down hard, her fingers digging into my hips, so that my soft swollen pussy seemed to smother the girl's mouth and nose totally.

"Don't get up until I say so!" Patricia told me, picking up her machete and pointing it in my face. She walked back over to the stool and picked up the stake she'd been sharpening, sitting down and glaring at me as she whittled it slowly.

I felt Katherine's mouth working as she tried to breath. Her body jerked uselessly, like a big worm with no appendages to push with. Her stumps made short little movements and I could feel panic radiate off her body in waves. It was the ultimate in bondage and a part of me found it interesting, exciting even. Nothing was holding the girl down but the weight of my cunt on her face. I saw the muscles in her abdomen straining as she tried to push me off. Her breasts were beautiful, perfect and the pink of her nipples seemed to turn darker with each effort. I wondered if I was supposed to kill her this way. The thought didn't bother me particularly. I felt my pussy growing wet. It was still incredibly sore, but that seemed to only heighten the sensation of her lips working against me.