His Angel
Copyright© 2007 by Dreamwalker
Chapter 6
Romantic Sex Story: Chapter 6 - Douglas met Amanda through an erotic story site. He responded to one of her stories hoping she would accept his help as an editor. They quickly became friends. Through their many chats, he learned that her heart was breaking. Her so-called happy marriage was not stable. Many nights, he listened as she let go of all the pain. It was then that Douglas told her, he wanted to be more then just a friend. He was falling in love with her.
Caution: This Romantic Sex Story contains strong sexual content, including Ma/Fa Consensual True Story First BBW
Amanda looked at the clock by the bed and it read 5am. She decided to get up, there was no use trying to sleep when she was this troubled. No matter what she said or did lately, things between her and Douglas, just did not turn out the way she had dreamed they would. She was way past the point of being upset, she was now angry.
She was mad, for letting herself fall in love again. When she knew she had not even given her heart time to heal. God, she was doing the same damn thing she did, when her first marriage failed. She met a man while still married. Then, fell in love with him for all the wrong reasons. She wanted to crawl inside a deep hole and die. In her mind, she vowed she would never love again. The pain was more than she could bear.
She sat down at the computer and logged on. She figured, she might as well chat and have some sexy fun. She went into her favorite chatroom and typed the following then chucked.
"I'm going crazy at dawn and selling tickets! Come join the party. It will sure be a lot easier than what I am doing now! "
Soon one of her male friend's responded. "Oh honey, nothing is as bad as that, besides you can't go crazy, you're already there."
"Smart-ass, you take all the fun out of my pity party!"
"Not really, I'm just an educated ass!" He then asked, what was troubling her.
She told him the short version of her dilemma and then reached for the tissues. She also told him, that she hated crying over any man or situation. "I hate it and wished I had not met this guy, or fallen in love at all!"
"I know baby. You are a very loving, sensitive, and caring person. In addition, I bet that right now, you feel the pain is more than you can bear. Just think for a moment, if you did not open up your heart to love again, the pain from the past could not have been let go."
"You know, I never thought of it that way. Thanks for listening. I think I will try to go to bed again, good-morning."
"Ditto, love yahs. Take care."
She was about to log off, when she decided to write Douglas an email. Maybe, if she put her thoughts down in writing, he would think again, and not push her away.
"My Blue-eyed devil,
How can I tell you what is on my heart, without hurting and crying? A part of me wants to get to know you and fall deeper in love with the other side of you (the one I do not see in bed). I want to scream, "Why not?
Then I rationalize things and tell myself, I understand. Until the next day, then I miss you once more and start crying again. Damn-it, I wanted you to be my love, the only man in my life, forever.
However, deep down I know that we will never have that kind of love. I also know that part of my feelings stem from what I did not find with Bryan. I know these are rebound feelings that I am having. Although, we may thing it real love. It is not the kind of love that takes time to develop and mature. Still, I wake up in the middle of the night crying and screaming, "Why can't it be?"
Douglas, how do I move on? When, I am too scared to let myself go and find out? I guess time will heal all wounds. I will always wonder why when it comes to you. So always, be my friend and hold me close to your heart. I wish you were holding me and making love to me! I miss you terribly! I think I will always love you! I hope we can get together soon. Will meeting you make me cry and want you more? I do not know. I just know that I am not ready to give you up.
Your sexy-green eyed Angel.
Amanda "
As he read her email, he cried. He knew that both of them were realizing that their love affair was coming to an end. He didn't want it to happen, because he knew he still loved her. He knew that, somewhere deep in his heart, he'd always love her. However, he also knew that he couldn't give her what she wanted or what she needed. She needed a man who would care for her every day not just every few weeks. She wanted a man who could go off to work in the morning and come home to her every night. He couldn't give her that, because he was on the road all the time. Driving a big rig, that's his job. That's how he makes a paycheck. There was no way that he could stop, just for one person. Even though, it was his happiness at stake too.
