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About Amy's Smile

March 20, 2006
Posted at 5:20 pm

I want to thank everyone who has encouraged, prodded, and downright bitched at me to finish this story. It has truly been amazing to me that so many people liked it enough to care about it that way. There are so many good stories and so many talented writers out there that to have this story be so loved by so many is almost overwhelming. It's been almost three years since I updated it and still I hear from people everyday.

I realize leaving everyone hanging was and is a really shitty thing to do. Believe me, I wish I could tell you now that I've finally finished it, but sorry that's not where I'm going. I have about half of the last chapter done and I've finished the epilog, but that's as far as I've gotten. I look at it at least once a week and sometimes I think I've got it figured out, but after a scene or two I'm back to the drawing board. I know the end, it's just the getting there that's the problem.

There are a lot of excuses I could give you. Moving, new job, chronic illness that prevents me from sitting at a computer for any amount of time, but the bottom line is they wouldn't be a problem if it wasn't for the roadblock in my head.

A lot of people seem to think that I've lost interest in the story. Not so. I loved writing most of it and the characters are some of my favorites. If I could figure out a way to put them, and you, and me, out of our collective misery, I do it. In fact one of the reasons I've been missing from the net for so long is because I've felt so guilty about this story that I didn't want to start or even deal with anything else. I was hoping that would force me to concentrate on it and finally find a way to finish the damn thing. Didn't work.

Now I'm trying something new. I posted a couple of stories that are new on the net, though they've been hanging around my hard drive for at least as long as Amy. I finally looked at them again this weekend and decided all they needed was a final polish. So I tried that and voila, I actually did somehthing I liked. That's the first time in a long time.

I also have a couple of other longer things hat are in various stages that I'm going to try and work on again and post, but only when they're completed--I've learned my lesson! Maybe writing something, anything else will help move the sludge in my mind. At least that's my hope.

So please bear with me a little longer. I know that it's frustrating, believe me I know, lol. I've gotten eleven feedback letters so far on the Michael story so far and only three of them have actually even mentioned it, the rest were just to remind me I still owned them a last chapter on Amy. Yikes. I'm trying guys, I really am.