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March 27, 2011
Posted at 6:07 am
Updated: March 27, 2011 - 8:20 am

Suppose you wrote a story and it totally sucked :(

This is really embarrassing. I posted this story, The Inquisition, and it sucks. The score is so low that it makes me nauseous. I have friends here who tell me, "Don't worry about the score. Just write for yourself." Helloo. Then why do we post a story publicly? For ourselves? No. For public consumption. And why also do we have scores? To be judged by ourselves? No. By the public. Well I care about my scores and this thing is sitting there like one of those turning-the-air-green farts in an elevator.

Because of the scoring system, I don't know if it's the subject matter (rape, violence and torture) or just a poor writing job, although I suspect it's probably both. After it was posted, I read it again and it does read like a roller coaster. The story is too short for the subject matter and the action comes at you too fast and too furious (sounds like a movie title). But a 4.48 worth of too fast and too furious? Jesus! And that's with several friends giving me undeservedly high scores.

So is there something to be learned from this? Perhaps but I'm not sure what. I did the best I could with this story, given the difficult subject matter. I pushed the envelope of my comfort level and clearly, I failed, getting a score so far below my norm it's ridiculous. Is this telling me to stay within myself and not reach? I don't know that either. Should I take more care writing a story, making an effort to develope it more? Hell, it took me 2 months to write this one, so again, I don't know.

At this point I'm considering pulling it altogether. I have a reasonably acceptable, although modest body of work, with an average score of 6.5. This thing is a rat stuck in my air conditioning duct and I think I need to call in an exterminator.

Maybe I should write a humiliation story, because that's the way I feel.


PS: One really curious thing about the reaction to this story? It's being saved to Premier libraries at a rate far beyond anything I've ever posted. Hmm.