The weekend is over. I attended 4 social events, never touched a drop and discovered it wasn't all that difficult. I was focused and committed and that was enough.
Congratulations to my SOL writer friend, who also made it through, except as a daily drinker, he's looking to stretch abstinence till at least next Wednesday, whereas I don't drink mid week.
Thank you for all the letters of support, including one from the anonymous "C". (Note to C: You must know I'm curious who you are. Are you perhaps someone who has said an unkind thing about me in the past? All is forgiven. Reach out to me. I won't tell or judge.)
From your emails, I'd say a lot of us are heavy drinkers
Changing behavior is 100 times more productive than trying to figure out why we behave that way. And 100 times faster. It's called behavior modification and I'm going to get mail from the Freudians on this.
I'm not an alcoholic; just a girl that has a tendency to drink too much (Languaging is part of behavior mod. We tend to behave in tandem with how we label ourselves.)
There was no physical withdrawal whatsoever
I see that a lot of my drinking is learned behavior or a conditioned reflex. To beat the conditioning, it took awareness that the behavior exists, my desire and commitment to change it, being observant to the triggers that generate that behavior (being with people who are drinking is a prime example) and being willing to go through the psychological discomfort of not taking the bait of those triggers.
You can get through a social event with 7-up, ice tea or fruit juice
I just experienced a weekend with more physical energy than I can remember; especially today, Sunday, when I woke up refreshed and energized
Alcohol, especially my beloved tequila, is an accelerant and without it I was uncharacteristically mellow
BY FAR THE MORE CHALLENGING BEHAVIOR WILL BE TO DRINK IN MODERATION. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO GETTING TRASHED EVERY WEEKEND BUT I DON'T KNOW THAT I WANT TO COMPLETELY STOP DRINKING. Next weekend will be a tougher test.
SOL has been and continues to be more important to me than you can imagine and the last 3 days are an example. As a reader friend from London wrote me recently: It's been fun watching you grow up on the pages of SOL.
One final word to BadFred: Dude. Glad to see you're holding up your end. I'd hate for anyone to lose their job 'cause I'm cutting back.