Boy I guess I am loosing it, I thought I already posted my entire story Hitch-hiking and thanks to a fan, I found out I forgot to post chapters 6,7 & 8 so I put up 6 and I’ll space the last two chapters over the next few days.
I had an e-mail to day that made me smile; it was from a man trying to explain how lust and love need to be kept separate. I smiled because like most men that is what you guys talk about and feel. A woman on the other hand ties the two together, and as wild and as nasty as I am, I am no different.
I try and keep the split in my own life but as hard as I try it is still there. I also write from my heart so I guess it comes through at time. Oh well that is life and we all seem to look at things differently.
I think I have you boys down pat, I mean I know that sex is always on your minds and while I seem to crave it more than most women.
I don’t know where I am going with this, because I guess I just do not have it figured out in my life, maybe I never will.
After all, how many married women do you know that says they love their husband and the minute he pulls out of the driveway she is anticipating her male friends arriving just so she can have sex for hours on end to make up for the two and a half days she was with her husband having sex?
A wife that will sleep with anything with a dick and is so successful at keeping it from the man she says she loves and does not ever desire to hurt. Oh yea, I have it figured out all right; I have the love and sex really figured out! Yea, sure I do. When it comes to shit like that, I’m so fucked up in the head it is sad.
I really want to speak up and thank all of you who took the time to write after I got into one of my down in the mully grub moods when I was fed up for a day or two. But Oh My God, you folks came back and made me feel so good and so wanted (as a story writer.)
I did get over it and I have stories be edited. I have posted a new one that I struggled with because I tried to do it from a man’s point of view. I have already been hearing back about it. So far nothing good, but then I did not expect it since I did not stick to what I know (me)
I wanted a short story and I have been told I ended it way too soon. And another lovely person told me that I was all over the place. Hmmm I kind of thought it would bomb, but I took a long time to write it and I did not want to just throw it away. Hey who knows, maybe someone will think it is a great little story and have a lovely fun time loosing him (or her) self in it. Hell I must have came a few dozen times writing it myself. I mean I tried to put myself in that story and I have to admit that it turned me on so I can only hope someone else gets to have fun with it as I did.
I just wish those that decide to criticize my writing and me would put that in the subject line so I could spare my feelings and just delete it with out opening the e-mail up. Oh I know I could turn off the e-mail function, but then I would never hear from those of you who enjoy my hard work and labor of erotic love.
This should be interesting, I just posted a story I tried to write from a man’s point of view, I know I screwed up the first time I tried this (many years ago.) In fact it was because of me first flop I decided to write about myself (so to speak) after all, I know the subject (myself) pretty well.
The hard part was being hmmm what is the word I am looking for? Not nasty, (I think I’m pretty nasty, maybe the word if Vulgar? Oh hell, I don’t know, I just know that the guys write different, they use a lot more Ahhhhh and Ohhhh and of course the favorite word of you boys in your stories, “Cum”
I guess I will see what everyone thinks shortly.
I just do not get it, I feel I write a good story, I make it nasty as I can, I get all kinds of responses and yet very few people vote and when they do I guess they vote my stories low. I have begun to ask myself why bother? I get all the sex a gal could ever want. I have no idea why I want to write and turn other on, yet I do. I seem to have some of the lowest scores. The ones that are higher seem to be stories about sex with children. Stories of rape seem to get higher scores than mine.
I looked at a few and I get hit all the time about my spelling, my grammar and the stories that get higher scores seem to have some very poor grammar, many miss-spelled words and still they get higher scores.
I do see where many people read and download my stories but so few vote. I never asked for votes on my stories until Hitchhiking. I guess I had some hope that asking would get my scores up and maybe more people would vote. I have four other stories done, and I am almost to the point of just saying forget it, why bother. I am ready to just stop. I quit Literotica because they cut up my stories and are just jerks when it comes to posting. Here I have my freedom but to what avail. I guess if I want higher scores I have to write stories about shit I hate. I hate sex between a grown man and a little girl; I hate stories of painful rapes. My thinking about rape is you can’t rape the willing. (I am always willing) but to be forced and hurt in order for some asshole to get off because he is in control or that he has physically hurt a women is fucking sick to me. But yet, YET those are the stories it would appear get the higher votes. NOT because they write better, not because they spell better, no it is the fucking content. The sick fucks love those stories so they give them the higher scores.
Look I am all for the freedom to write any kind of story you want, and the same freedom to read any story you want. If you like shitting and it gets you off, fine, if you like reading about that and jerking off or masturbating I am Ok with that as well. I myself see no enjoyment in doing it or watching it or reading about it.
I know I am weird, I want some sort of story line, I want to see more and go in depth. I ma not a professional writer, I do want to write better, I want people to masturbate when they read about something exciting and they become part of the story, but I also desire them to come away remembering the story line and then wanting to come back, not just to masturbate, but to see where the story goes and like the story as well.
Hell anyone can throw words together like fuck, eat me, suck me, give it to me, Ahhhhhh Ohhhhhh yes, yes. But come on, is that all you guys want and need?
Fuck it!